Last night I had a dream, I guess it was pretty important since I'm taking the time to write about it but it was a long dream and it was last night so if your reading this and it seems a little confusing, just remember, right now as I am typing it is 11:15 PM and I am trying to remember a dream that i had last night.
introduction before the explanation of my dream: I was adopted From China 10 years ago. My mom is a single parent and we have one dog, Cheerio. Cheerio was adopted from a shelter called Bide-a-wee (Scottish for: stay a while) but anyway, we got Cheerio on October 5th 2007, he is two now. My mom and I live in an apartment in Manhattan. When I was adopted I had scars on my head, probably from running into a wall or something and pneumonia. I already had the scars when my mom adopted me and i got pneumonia when i got to the United States. Now I have bangs that cover my scars and i don't have to use an asthma inhaler anymore.
My Dream: I had a dream where my mom decided to put me up for adoption, (my adopted mom) , I was my age as I am now and she decided to put me up for adoption. I don't think she straight out said she would but I knew she was. It was really weird because I knew she was going to but whenever we would have conversations and watch TV together or something, everything seemed fine. I remember there was this part of my dream when my mom and I were going to Chinatown to this restaurant where it was also an adoption center or something. My mom wasn't there when I was walking there and I was with a friend. When my friend and I got the the Restaurant my friend left me, I was just standing there hoping I would see my mom. Then i saw her coming up the street she said that this was the place and that I should just go in there and tell them I am being put up for adoption again. Before my mom had came and after my friend had left I had thrown up about three times right in front of me. My mom didn't even seem to notice the big puddles of vomit on the ground she was almost stepping on. while my mom was talking I saw a girl with her parents throught the window, I guessed she was being put up for adoption too. Then the parent left and I guess this is the magic-ness of dreams but i couldn't see the girl anymore, it was like she had just vanished.
As my mom was about to leave I stopped her and told her to stay because she would probably need to sign some forms or something. She agreed and we both went in together.
At home, I guess the orphanage told us some things and then told us to go home, I knew I was leaving and that my last days at home were only temporary but while we were at home my mom stayed at the back for most of the time and Cheerio and I sat on the ground and there were like these monster like creatures around me, but they were good, they seemed to be taking care of me. I liked having them around. It made my stomach feel a little better but then i started to cry.
When my mom decided to come out from hiding she began talking to me as if there was nothing wrong and as if she wasn't going to give away her child, I felt really lonely and sad and really confused. I didn't understand why my mom would want to put me up for adoption and I didn't understand why she was acting like there was nothing wrong.
When I woke up from the dream my eyes were tearing, I knew it was a dream but a part of it just seemed so real I couldn't get over it. Then I took a quick shower, got ready for school, and a normal regular day started.
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